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Each time I hang out with my friends, I feel like a different person. Maybe it's the fact that I don't see all of my friends together very often (the long distance ones or the nearby/Pittsburgh ones) and so I'll reminisce upon the last time we shared a day together or the last time we had as much fun. True friends are a wondrous thing, really, because no matter how lame you are, no matter how silly you may act, they always see inside of you, and can relate your actions to your past experiences. They can understand your emotions and soak you in, relating the closest thing they have to your troubles. I feel like every time I see my friends I've grown from what they've taught me last. I admire the fact that we can have fun doing anything, that we could simply sit there and talk about the summer or a birthday or a random adventure we took once upon a time when we were all together and there was no drama.
Clearly the more drama there is, the harder it is for a large group of friends to stick together. But what also comes into play is the fact that the ones who are remaining and move on past the drama and gossip and hurt have more strength and are unified in one loving circle, because after all they've shared with each other from their lives, they have one solid thing in common. And while some people might despair over that one common bond being a negative thing, it's no big whoop. What binds you will remain.

Last Day of Schoooool.

So today, approximately two hours and thirty-six minutes ago, I finished my last day of tenth grade. This year has been surprisingly easy. I'm not sure whether that's due to the fact that I transferred to a new school (which is a middle college, so you wouldn't expect it to be easier, but it was), or whether I got smarter, or whether the classes were 55 minutes long so I pretty much didn't have any homework at all. Or something else. I definitely do know that my social life and... is it called an emotional life? struggled more than my academic...path.

Not only was it difficult to make close friends at Boyce, but I seemed to be the only one with this problem. Even though there were small bouts of drama here and there, everyone pretty much got along and most certainly everyone knew everyone. Even to the last day of school I got asked "Wait, what's your name?" Yeah, really. The school was so much different than what I had been expecting, and when I told people that I was possibly moving to State College it seemed the teachers were the people who cared most. Maybe it's my fault, though; maybe I entered the school year with too stubborn opinions and too little hopes.

I've compiled a list of things I've done or learned this school year, not necessarily in school or anything, just from last August to today. Enjoy.

1) Contrary to my prior belief (and what I thought was fact), I've learned that you can indeed present a powerpoint on homosexual issues in the media and have people NOT laugh at you.
2) I've learned that I can indeed compile my own set lists.
3) With a set list I had the courage to play a wizard rock show with my own songs, which felt better than anything I've experienced this year.
4) I've come to realize that the reason I love the Weasleys so much is that my family sucks and I yearn to have one like theirs, which, no, is NOT perfect.
5) I've realized that clearly I've become more frigid and closed to people, which led me to confusion over whether I'm just more clever in certain situations than some people, or whether I'm just not experiencing everything.
6) Sometime in March I wrote a four page essay until four in the morning. And WASN'T late for school the next day.
7) I've noticed that my reputation of "that Harry Potter girl" is not going anywhere.
8) I realize that #7 is nothing to complain about.
9) I learned to hold my head high especially when a) I'm being horribly embarrassed, b) I do indeed know what I'm talking about, and c) I'm being stared at.
10) I've learned to walk with dignity and laugh my loudest, no matter who's looking or what ridiculous face I make when I laugh.
11) I have gone over a year without talking to someone who I used to belief I couldn't live a day without. Two people, actually.
12) I've maintained very close relationships with people who I haven't seen for 6-11 months.
13) I reread Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince so I was up to date on the little details before the movie comes out this summer. (Not that the movies pay attention to the little details or anything.)
14) Became obsessed with the songs Butterfly Kisses for Minerva, The Fall, and I May Lose Everything.
15) I not only filled nearly every visible spot of turqoise paint on my walls, but I also began to write some of my favorite quotes on them with sharpie (Zach!) and then proceeded to move onto covering the ceiling (Ivy!).
16) I've realized that I really, really, really, really, really REALLY WISH SOMEONE WOULD DO YOUTUBE WITH ME AND NOT BE LAZY. Sorry, I felt like that had to be in all caps to get my point across.
17) Sometimes my all caps disguise my fear, my insecurity, or my serious take on things. Sometimes I don't even try to make it that way.
18) I've gone to wizard rock shows and had an amazing time even though there were a bunch of Muggles standing around and people staring at my ridiculous dance moves. Back in 2007 you would've never ever seen me with so much confidence.
19) I've begun to go religiously by Tianna Weasley.
20) I realized I liked someone a whole, whole lot and did what I knew best: ignored it.
21) I started wearing clothes that, you know, fit me.
22) I accepted that I'm crazy sometimes and also accepted that if you don't accept it, too fuggin shay.
23) I ended up with all A's and one C, which is a replica of my grades on my last 2 final report cards of the last 2 years of my education.
24) Began to yearn to get back into musical theater.
25) Wrote a song for three of my best friends.
26) Organized a show at my local library.
27) Agreed to play a show in a Hot Topic.
28) Sat in a car alone with my brother driving for 5 hours total.
29) Registered for Azkatraz.
30) Made about a hundred 5witches2wizards videos. How many did you make, guys?
31) Realized I don't hold grudges, but some bitterness just doesn't go away.
32) Got a 100% in gym class.
33) Survived two horrible college classes on campus.
34) Got a tripod, a flickr, and a born again inspiration for photography.
35) Rode a train by myself to the Bryn Mawr yule ball and back in under 24 hours.
36) Missed something more than I thought I was ever capable of.
37) Booked a plane ride for only myself. I'm still terrified at the thought.
38) Missed the 2009 ball drop because I was watching Hairspray and talking to Zach on the phone.
39) Got 40 pages into a Stephen King book and..stopped.
40) Saw my favorite muggle band in concert.
41) Went to prom without a date.
42) Got to my 3 year vegetarian anniversary mark.
43) Had someone get to know me because of Sweeney Todd.
44) Sustained injuries tripping over dollhouses, up the stairs, and hitting my head off the open bathroom mirror all in under 10 minutes.
45) Had my best friend come visit for one concert, one night, skipped school the day of and the day after, and then got bestfriendsick because I could smell her on my sheets.
46) Got strep throat twice.
47) Went 8 months without dying my hair.



Yep. that was my 10th grade year. Sooo exciting.